ithildin: (Art - If Only)
I'm still around, just feel like I'm in a fishbowl, looking out, but not able to touch. We did go to SoCal for my birthday (early) to take advantage of the 4th being a paid holiday. Met up with Jen and Dave, did Disney, the beach (the ocean won.), and some very nice dinners. The whole day at the beach was a humourous disaster, but memorable. Had a lovely birthday dinner at Crystal Cove (there's a few sunset photos on my Instagram), but got emotionally overwhelmed after dinner thinking of Tammy and I ruined it for everyone. Sunday we had a quiet day at Disneyland - it was a blackout weekend for SoCal passes and it was divine! Pretty much walked on to the rides. Nin and I actually made it to midnight. We credit the pot of Jasmine tea we had late afternoon at Carthay Circle lounge in the California park. If there was a way to not have to drive thru the Mojave Desert, we'd go to SoCal more often in the summer. But the heat of the trip is unrelenting, and the car A/C really can't keep up.

My brother built me a pond/waterfall in my yard, which I love, monsoon season is well under way, though the storms keep skirting past us, and I can't wait till Autumn! This weekend kinda disappeared amongst not being able to sleep properly, pain, and just general mehness. I'd hoped to write, but the desire/ability seemed to disappear with Tammy's death. I guess we'll see what the next few months bring. I feel bad as I had two WIPs going great guns, then screeching halt.

I'll try and post more often. I am reading here, just, you know, fishbowl.

Date: 2014-07-14 03:11 am (UTC)From: [personal profile] morgynleri
morgynleri: sneak sneak sneak sneak sneak sneak sneak POUNCE! (sneak pounce)
*hugs you* Grief effects people differently, and it takes however long it takes to get to a point where you can live with a loss. And some things take longer to be able to get back to than others - however long it takes, though, you'll still have people who are there when you're ready to try again. You'll get there, wherever there is for you, when you get there.

In the meanwhile, yay for having things to enjoy, and being able to enjoy them! *hugs you again*

Date: 2014-07-14 07:54 pm (UTC)From: [personal profile] dejla
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I'm glad you had the weekend, but I'm sorry it brought up sad reminders. Congratulations on being able to stay up till midnight! I almost can't do that any more.

Yeah, I've been blocked myself for a while.

And you finished your whole long story-cycle -- You might be just a little tired, so don't worry too much about it.

I keep hoping I'll be able to write more, but I'm finding myself just sitting around and re-reading books...

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