Holidays are hard

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This was the year we were going to bring Tammy out for Xmas. I couldn't stop thinking of that. What ifs, and what might have beens. New Year's Eve was particularly difficult. And I very much missed being near enough to friends in California so as not to feel so alone. I haven't really made friends here, and really, most of my friends have been internet born and bred, which doesn't make for close proximity. All in all, 2014 wasn't a great year. You always hope the new year will be better, but who knows?