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ithildin ([personal profile] ithildin) wrote2009-12-22 07:57 pm
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I'm Not Very Good at LJ Anymore, Am I?

But I have nothing to post about. I feel so out of touch. I wonder if I'll ever write again. I know, I will - one day. But right now, it kinda sucks that my muse feels so dead. When I'm half asleep/falling asleep/awake in the middle of the night, I normally think of fic, but all I seem to be able to obsess over is the job. Then I get anxious and then I can't sleep, rinse, repeat. I know (hope) things will settle down eventually, but right now, I pretty much doubt it 3/4s of the time :)

I hope everyone is well. I'm trying to at least skim LJ, but that's about it.
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[identity profile] tygermama.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs* don't stress over it, your muse will return, and probably want to write something completely unrelated to any of the wips you've got going. :D

You were stressed about not having a job for a long time, and now you're worried about getting everything you need to know for the new job down, when the built up anxiety works it's way out of your system, your muse will return.

At least that's the way it works with me.

How do you like the new job, by the way? Are there nice people there?
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I know that in a part of my brain, but I think the weeks of stress are just sort of overloading my circuits :) My 'tummy troubles' are pretty much out of control at this point (was that delicate enough?) so my physical and mental systems are totally out of whack. I'm glad it's a short week.

Yes, some nice people, and I like aspects of the job, but I'm still feeling ambivalent :)
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[identity profile] easilymused1956.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
Sweetie! Just give life some time. New jobs are made of stress. Just remember that you can always come to lj when you need to destress.

There are lots of folks here to commiserate with.

Renee
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks :) I just want to feel like 'me' again - or at least a non worse case scenario me [g]
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[identity profile] otterevil.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
{{{{{{{{Ithy}}}}}}}}

You get time off over Christmas? Totally pamper yourself :)
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I work office hours, so I have the holiday off. [HUGS]

[identity profile] panthology.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 04:55 am (UTC)(link)
*Snugs*

Is there someone you can talk to at work who might help ease your mind a little?
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks :)
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[identity profile] fractured-sun.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 09:59 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs* don't worry the muse will be back, give yourself some time to relax into the new job and you'll feel much less stressed. In the meantime sit back and enjoy the break over christmas.
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
I hope so!

[identity profile] pat-t.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 11:08 am (UTC)(link)
You know it will get better, but that's not much help now. A new job is stressful so try not to be so hard on yourself. Once you get all settled in and all the changes in your life aren't so *new*, you'll start feeling more like yourself again. I'm sure of it.

Merry Christmas.
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks [HUGS]

[identity profile] det-munch.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 12:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Poppycock and rubbish! You're great at livejournal, you just have other priorities right now. I think it's understandable that you are have a little trouble adjusting both in schedule and stress level etc. jobs are a lot of work and yours sounds like it's pretty busy! I am sure all you need is some time to adjust to the change and figure things out. I hope things get better for you though and that you are able to get more sleep.

[identity profile] det-munch.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
you're welcome :)

[identity profile] layla-aaron.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 02:40 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* Your muse will be back and the writing will resume. Give yourself time to fully settle into the job and the whole new routine, and I think you'll be pleasantly surprised.
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
Here's hoping :)

[identity profile] grachonok.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
The day is already longer - and things just ought to get better after Christmas! And we'll be here whenever your muse decides to return:).
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :)

[identity profile] lizbet0.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 04:12 pm (UTC)(link)
More hugs from here & "Ditto" to what everyone else said! Don't create more stress for yourself by fretting about your stress, dear. Your muse is just on a brief vacation, and will hopefully return with pina coladas soon! {grin}
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
She's such a lush!
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[identity profile] dj-aida.livejournal.com 2009-12-23 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh honey, I know it's easy to say don't worry when all you can do is worry. Everyone's already offered some great advice. I just want to tell you I understand how you feel and if you even need someone to commiserate with, I'm all ears.
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[identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com 2009-12-24 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks [HUGS]