Checking In

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I'm still around, just feel like I'm in a fishbowl, looking out, but not able to touch. We did go to SoCal for my birthday (early) to take advantage of the 4th being a paid holiday. Met up with Jen and Dave, did Disney, the beach (the ocean won.), and some very nice dinners. The whole day at the beach was a humourous disaster, but memorable. Had a lovely birthday dinner at Crystal Cove (there's a few sunset photos on my Instagram), but got emotionally overwhelmed after dinner thinking of Tammy and I ruined it for everyone. Sunday we had a quiet day at Disneyland - it was a blackout weekend for SoCal passes and it was divine! Pretty much walked on to the rides. Nin and I actually made it to midnight. We credit the pot of Jasmine tea we had late afternoon at Carthay Circle lounge in the California park. If there was a way to not have to drive thru the Mojave Desert, we'd go to SoCal more often in the summer. But the heat of the trip is unrelenting, and the car A/C really can't keep up.

My brother built me a pond/waterfall in my yard, which I love, monsoon season is well under way, though the storms keep skirting past us, and I can't wait till Autumn! This weekend kinda disappeared amongst not being able to sleep properly, pain, and just general mehness. I'd hoped to write, but the desire/ability seemed to disappear with Tammy's death. I guess we'll see what the next few months bring. I feel bad as I had two WIPs going great guns, then screeching halt.

I'll try and post more often. I am reading here, just, you know, fishbowl.