State of Meh

[ithildin]

I'm wondering if I'm reaching the place with Highlander that I reached with Forever Knight a few years ago - a place I'll always have fond memories of, but have moved on from. Sad part is, nothing is really around to replace that one time all consuming love. There's definitely less and less interest out there in Highlander, and it's kind of hard to maintain enthusiasm when you're writing. I'm not sure what to do about the series I currently write in, maybe it's time to just retire it, I don't know. Or maybe this is all just work/home stress related that may pass over time, leaving me feeling more like myself. But right now, I just can't seem to work up any sort ra ra ra for it at all.

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[dj-aida.livejournal.com]

I feel the same way about Magnificent Seven. I feel less and less inspired to create something new, and the only time I seem to get as excited about it as I used to be is around the time of the Big Bang. I haven't been worried about it, feeling that it's just a question of over-saturation because there has been time when I produced and read and watched constantly. I'm now deliberately branching out, seeking new fandoms, and I hope that eventually, I'll feel the desire to be more creative in Mag7.

And if I don't, then I figure it's better to just let it go naturally instead f trying to force it. Distance might be the best thing at a certain point of time: I know several fans who have become active again after being away for many, many years.

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

Well, at least we share one of those new fandoms :)

[dj-aida.livejournal.com]

Yes! I'm so giddy about the upcoming Avengers movie, even my sister has started rolling her eyes. :)

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

LOL! We'll just have to squee together.

[dj-aida.livejournal.com]

Yes! But dang it's inconvenient living away from all the fandom happenings. I'd love to go to a con and squee over fan related things in RL.

[jedimasterstar.livejournal.com]

Maybe a break from writing in the series is in order. Keep it open just in case you want to come back to it. That is what I did with a a couple of series.

I know how you feel about loosing interest in a fandom. Right now, I'm loosing interest in Doctor Who. I use to be so excited about it. But now that is wearing off. So I know how you feel.

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

Maybe something will turn up one of these days :)

[jedimasterstar.livejournal.com]

You'll find something.

[jinxed-wood.livejournal.com]

In terms of producing fannish material, rather than just watching passively, Highlander and Doctor Who are my two great loves, but the fevered outpourings I used to produce when I was in the throes of first love have definitely petered off. I kind of miss it and I really wish I could kickstart my muse into overdrive again! It's hard, thought, to pin down what brings out the fanfic writer in me.

The one thing I can pin down is what doesn't make me fannish - the lack of a strong female character with thir own agency. So, straight off the bat, Supernatural never was going to do it for me despite the fact it's good TV but I love Sanctuary, despite all its faults and Fringe is a thing of pleasure for me, because it has the double whammy of a good script and a wonderful female central character!

And rambling comment is rambling!

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

I have no idea what makes me fannish enough about something to actually write fic. I can't really think of a show currently airing on TV that I have the urge to write fic for. I did dabble in White Collar and a very small dabble of Lost girl at one point, but that's about it.

[adabsolutely.livejournal.com]

I understand how you feel. Still, like the old Star Trek series I expect it to remain a good place in my memories. Do you think you can get away for the con in Portland? A last hurrah.

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

No, we're not going to do Portland, I'm afraid.

Yep, definitely some good memories! I think it was the smallness of the fandoms (Forever Knight and Highlander), and the relative intimacy, that made them special for me. I don't really see that happening again in today's world.

[adabsolutely.livejournal.com]

We will miss you in Portland. If it were anywhere else I wouldn't be able to afford to go. Getting tired of these 'interesting' times.

[donna-c-punk.livejournal.com]

I get into that position a LOT. I'm one of those, get into a fandom, burn and burn BRIGHT kind of people. So I think I spend a lot of my fannishness in one shot. Then other times, it's the quality of the product that'll set me onto cool or languishing interest. Supernatural was the last fandom I wrote any real fic for and my last story was almost four years ago. Doctor Who, I was so disappointed in the current season, I scrapped an Eleventh Doctor story idea because I had no motivation to write it. Hopefully you'll find something to get you going again, creatively. I haven't had that outlet with fandom, so I'm searching for it in original fic. It's not panning out so well. :/

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking maybe I need to rewatch my old favourites and see if that jump starts me at all.

[brightknightie.livejournal.com]

You have to play where your heart is engaged and your imagination alight, wherever that may be.

It sounds like, for you, that depends importantly on other people being engaged and alight along with you? That is, it's not a closed circuit between you and the source story, so the energy wanes for you in sleepy fandoms, such as HL certainly has become.

I'm still in love with FK, after all these years, so my experience is different, and I speculate that my needs are, too. I need audiences! like anyone else. :-) But... I loved FK and HL both well before I discovered fandom, and where fandom fades, it leaves me only where I began, together alone with my stories.

You can always come back to HL (or FK!) after a break, when a new spark lights up your imagination again. There's no need to be always putting out new content in a particular fandom to maintain a call on it. No one will kick you out if you go quiet. ;-) We'll still be here when the time comes.

Good luck!

[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

Yep, seems all my fandoms are on Ambien [g]