Bleah

[ithildin]

I hate my birthday. It's a long standing tradition to hate it, but this year, I seemed to have been lulled into a false sense of cheery good feelings about it. Till tonight. Now I remember why it's a stupid day that isn't worth acknowledging. Note to self: don't get suckered in next year! Considering how crashingly depressed I am right at this moment, by Sunday, I should be a complete basket case. Go me.

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[ithildyn.livejournal.com]

It's just one of those things I can't really explain, but I think I just have bad associations with birthdays from when I was a kid. That, and birthdays and New Years are two days where I look at what I've done in my life and feel like a failure. Now I'm well into my 40s there's the whole biological clock aspect that just adds to it. So it's all that and me just not doing so well last night.

Sounds like your birthday plan is quite lovely :)